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My hart gos out to moTyli’a 'NaNa Boo' Macks mother  Beverlyn

And to all the parents of transsexuals that have been KILLED.

WHY,,,,,, WHY have we been  shot, stabbed, bludgeon, bunt ,drowned,  beaten to death with baseball bats or anything these  men can lay there hands on..

Going back to the man,,, issue  ,,,,well not even men these,,,, do not even deserve to be called men ,,, they are just ,,,,, they have no category, and they should not have one they are just,,, evil….

What have we ever done to them, to deserve this much hatred?  Nothing that is what we have done.

We live our life’s,, well we try to live them,

We life in fear,

Fear that we will be picked in the street and called vile names, like pervert nonce freaks,, we are not

Fear that we will be called Mr. or sir, laughed at in shops when we go shopping

Or just hold the line while I look at your account, and just before you are put on hold you hear them laughing

Fear when walking down a road and a group of teenagers start calling you vile names

Spiting at you, throwing things at you,

Fear when we are in our own homes and our houses get stoned or what ever they can throw  at your windows , putting things through a letter box  like petrol and a match(I do not have a letter box for this reason )   burning down your shed in the garden (I have had this done 2 times)

Fear that when you are out in your car and some yobs smash it up,(  I was still in my car when this happened .)

Fear that when you answer your door that some yobs are there to mock you and throw stuff at you,  (I now have a doorbell camera so I can see who is at my door be for I open it )

Fear that when yobs are outside your house throwing bricks at it and saying that they will brake in to my house rape me and then burn the house down with me in it. (I have had this said to me) 

Fear when Iam walking down the street and I hear footsteps behind me.

I live in fear.

Some people ask WHY live this way, why not go back to being a man

When will that  lot get it there  heads WE ARE NOT MEN

What man would do this the themselves?????? None

When I have had to call the police out a few times,

And when the local beat bobby calls to get a statement, and I tell him what happened, he asks about my feelings about the whole thing. The first couple times he asked me how I felt about the incidents I told him that I was hurt in side.

The time he came out when they were shouting  that they were going to rape me and burn me, he asked me how did it make me feel, I broke down and cried saying that I was scared, freighted, some times I would stay in and not go out .

 Paranoid, I am for ever checking that my doors and windows  are locked and the keys are not in the doors, sleeping on the sofa and with every little noise I am up checking, if I am going  out my front door and I hear voices in the street like kids I go back in to my house and wait till they are gone. This is no way to live. How do I feel      sick to my stomach, that in this day age we hurt people because they are different? 

When I walk out of my house to go anywhere, even  up to my corner shop I have a pepper spray in my hand, when I shop in town and iam walking round the shops I have my pepper spray in my hands.

And if ( touch wood I hope it never happens) I was attacked and I used  my pepper spray, it would be me in the dock and not the yobs that kicked shit out of me or if I was killed I would still be one who was in the wrong 

  WHY DO WE HAVE TO LIVE IN FEAR WHEN WILL ALL THIS HATRED STOP